know thyself

I've been learning a lot about myself through this entire experience, as to be expected. Yes, in the last four years I've had to dig deep into my soul, the Spirit has revealed a lot of my sin to me (and thus also caused me to look more at Jesus and the Cross more than I ever have), and wounds that were puss-filled and infected have been cleaned out, and are in the process of fully healing. But, let's take a moment to look at two "practical" things I've learned about myself.

First of all, I've always tested as an off-the-charts extrovert. A person that thrives and gets all of her energy from being around other people. But what I've been discovering more and more, as of late, is that I think I'm a lot closer to introvert than I ever thought. No, I'm not an introvert, but I'm closer to the introvert/extrovert line than once believed. As I've heard from a friend with a similar diagnosis later in life, "You're more of an introvert with exceptional people skills." I tend to agree.

Have you ever heard about the best environment to work in depending on what you're doing? For example, if you're working on something more creative, such as design or art, having a large, open space with light colors and high ceilings is usually the best way to go. It helps your mind and soul think more creatively. But if you've got to work on more detailed projects, smaller spaces with lower ceilings are better. Ok. So why am I rambling about this? Because I tend to be on the creative/imaginative/daydreaming side of things. And for months I've been wondering why I can't seem to get much of anything accomplished when I sit out in the kitchen/living room/dining room area with it's high ceilings and wide open spaces. So I moved into the office. Small, confined space with not much to look at out the window. Ta-da!! Work is (usually) getting accomplished! Needless to say, I'm not a task-oriented person. Anyone that's spent any significant amount of time with me knows that. And what is raising support?? So feckin' task oriented I'm going crazy and being stretched beyond words. It's painful for me, really. I like the people part, but the task part is killin' me. (Smalls)

I'm holing up in the office again...

posted by eurorebs at 9:03 PM